Her First Beef Meal

Just wanna share Rossi gal's first meal with beef here. :) 

I'm so happy that beef is added to her raw diet. The sight of the beef makes me crave to eat it myself. ;p

And Rossi gal loves beef just like her mummy does. Yay! :D

Settling In & Getting Beef for the First Time

It had been a busy time for us, with the shifting and adjusting to the new environment.

Rossi gal did better than I have expected. Intially, I was concerned that the change of environment would stress her out. I was worried it would affect her appetite & potty routine too. But to my relief, she is still pretty much her usual self...still engaging us in play the way she always does, eating her meals, loving her treats and her pee/poo is ok too. Thank God.

Darling is still in the midst of adjusting herself to the unfamiliar noises and exploring the new 'smells' in her surrounding. Daddy and I know she is a good gal and is trying her best to blend in. At the same time, we ourselves are also getting accustomed to the whole new environment. But I know me, daddy and Darling will settle in nicely in time to come.

Last Sunday, it was my first time getting beef for Rossi gal. And of course, I got it from my favorite butcher. I have always admired the variety of beef cuts at their counter every time I go there to replenish her lamb supplies. Finally, now I can make my beef purchases and feel them in the flesh! ;p

Here it goes, my first beef purchase for Rossi gal :D

I started off with the leaner beef cuts, as I wanted to let her get used to eating beef first. Eventually, I will get other cuts of beef for her. As compared to lamb, the variety of beef cuts available seems more extensive. The beef section also looks bigger than the one for lamb.   

Those who know me, would know that I dun give Darling beef. It used to be a house rule set by Daddy due to some personal reasons. Other than beef, Daddy is supportive of her raw diet and is fine with red meats like lamb, pork, venison and kangaroo. She still has a good variety of meats and most importantly, Daddy believes in the benefits of the raw diet.

Then one fine day, Daddy told me, Darling can take beef when we move out. Why the change? Why is it only when we move out that she can start taking beef?

The answer to the first question: His perspectives have changed. It is hard to believe, even I myself find it too amazing to be true, but it is true. God changed him. I won't be elaborating on this. But in a nutshell, after being in touch with God, he has changed.

Knowing Daddy for a decade and a half, he had always been very rigid on the No-Beef rule in the house. The rule applied to me as well. I cannot eat beef within the confines of the house too.

But the rule is lifted! Now both me and Darling can eat beef in the house. Yay! ;D

As for the second question: There is a personal reason involved. To me, it doesn't matter that Darling can only start eating beef at the new place. The only thing that matters to me is, Darling can eat beef now. This is something I can never imagine Daddy saying yes to. Thank God.

Hope Rossi gal will enjoy eating beef as much as I do. :)


Zzz-ing at our new place ;p

A New Beginning & Her Early X'mas Pressie

December marks a new beginning for Rossi gal, me and Daddy.

We are moving to a new place. I'm excited, so is Daddy. Hopefully, Rossi gal is excited like us too. She is gonna experience new stuff & I can't wait to present them to her. :D

Naturally, we would all have to get used to a whole new environment, but it is definitely a positive change for us. I believe we will blend into the new place in no time with support from one another.

Nothing else matters anymore, as long as Rossi gal, me and Daddy are together.

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Two months back, I got a bag for her. I bought it cos it could fit Darling's size quite comfortably. (She is rather big boned.) At the same time, I also couldn't seem to find another bag of an appropriate size back then.

Nevertheless, I continued my search for the right bag. My efforts paid off. 
I finally found it. :)

Without hesitation, I placed my order for the bag and it arrived. The earlier bag I bought would serve as a substitute bag for her when I wash this bag.

As it is nearing the X'mas season, this bag will be her X'mas pressie. :p

Here it goes...Her new Argo Pentagon Bag. :)

I really like this bag. To me, it looks sporty & cool. In terms of design, this new Argo bag is a definitely a winner over the earlier bag. For size wise, both bags are similar.

Darling in her new bag. She loves it! ;D

The good I bring with me, The bad I leave behind. Negativity & its evilness shall not prosper. I will avoid it like plague, for it has no place in my life. Only positivity & its light shall enter our new place. Amen. :)

Negativity

Negativity sucks away energy.

If part of the negativity stems from your attitude or perspective, commit yourself at the beginning of each day and each activity to find something positive in yourself and in others around you.

If the people around you are negative and you can't change that, either remove yourself from the situation or view it simply as one obstacle you face in pursuing your own potential.

Stay focused on your own goals and make the best of the situation. 

By Terry Orlick

It is easier to avoid the effects of others' negativity when we question if an action or attitude is appropriately directed at us. If it isn't, we can choose to sidestep it and let it pass.
 
By Sue Patton Theole

A Trying Time

I am going through a time that is filled with frustration, helplessness, anxiety & disappointment. It does not help too, that there is so much negativity surrounding me. Things that I see. Things that I hear. Things that are happening. They only serve to add on to my already heavy burden.

Rossi gal's daddy is ever supportive and is right by my side. He has been with me through thick & thin, in good & bad times all these years. He is my pillar. Without his support, I would have collasped many times over.

In this trying time, I need more positivity & less negativity. More negativity will only bring me down deeper than I am now. I need to avoid negativity in all forms. If I can't stop negativity, I will have to avoid it. Negativity can kill one's spirit. I need my spirit to fight on.

I know in my heart that only God can see me through this. I sincerely hope He will provide a way out. 15 years ago, I strayed away from him. I thought He did not care for me at all, but I was wrong. He is the one who lends his helping hand to me when I needed it most. He has never forgotten me. He remains faithful to me, in spite of my faithlessness. He has always been there for me. I need him more than ever now.

Last but not least, I'm amazed that those whom I least or never expect to care, show their concern for me. It is really nice to know that there are those who care.

I Have Learned

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
 
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care, some people just don’t care back.
 
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
 
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts.
 
I’ve learned that you can do something in an instant that will give you a heartache for life.
 
I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it, there are always two sides.
 
I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I’ve learned that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
 
I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly, but just don’t know how to show it.
 
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
 
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.
 
I’ve learned that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated.
 
I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend someone is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
 
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
 
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I've learned that sometimes you have to put the individual aheard of their actions.
 
I’ve learned that we don’t have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
 
I’ve learned that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
 
I’ve learned that there are many ways of falling and staying in love.
 
I’ve learned that no matter how many friends you have, if you are their pillar, you will feel lonely and lost at the times you need them most.
 
I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon.
 
I’ve learned that although the word “love” can have many different meanings, it loses value when overly used.
 
I’ve learned that love is not for me to keep, but to pass on to the next person I see.
 
I’ve learned that even when I have pains, I don’t have to be one.

I’ve learned that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I’ve learned that no matter the consequences, those who are honest with themselves get farther in life.
  
I’ve learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone. People love that human touch – holding hands, a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back.
 
I’ve learned that either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I’ve learned that writing, as well as talking, can ease emotional pains.

I’ve learned that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned that the paradigm we live in is not all that is offered to us.

I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people that’s important. It’s what they do about it.
 
I’ve learned that it’s a lot easier to react than it is to think.
 
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for ourselves.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself to the best others can do, but to the best you can do.

I’ve learned that you can keep going long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you’re down will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned that learning to forgive takes practice.

I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by someone else. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned that mental stimulation is the way to a person’s heart.

I’ve learned that just because you’re not together now doesn’t mean it wasn’t meant to be. Now is just not your time.

I’ve learned that money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I’ve learned that making a living is not the same as making a life.

I’ve learned that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

I’ve learned that your family wont't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.

I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned that if you want to cheer yourself up, you should try cheering someone else up.

I’ve learned that you can make someone’s day by simply sending them a little card.

I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of minutes by people who don’t even know you.

I’ve learned that it’s taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe.

I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.

By Author Unknown

Praying for Rossi gal

I never used to believe God would bless or help the furkids, a small part due to the influence of some cynics & a large part, due to the negative experiences I have had with His people years back. Experiences I rather forget, but they remain etched in my mind like they just occurred yesterday.

I always do my best for Rossi gal & I still do now, but I always feel that my best is not enough. I too realise that there is only so much I can do, for I am only human. I feel my own limitations. I recognise that I need a helping hand, but not of another human.

I need God's hand.

I have been praying for Rossi gal. I realise that He does care. He is unlike what some have portrayed Him to be. I dun wanna go into detail how I realised it. I sincerely pray and hope that God will always watch over & bless my precious little gal.

Her daddy, who has been a major skeptic all these years, sees God in a whole new light. He sees God & His goodness. He believes in His providence. This is a drastic 360 degrees change coming from someone who used to scorn at church & disbelieve in God.

For those who are rolling eyes & mocking me as you read this post, roll your eyes & mock me all you want. Just know that your actions are rude not only to me, but to God as well. Not that you would care, but I just wanted to let you know how rude you are. Feel free to continue in your rudeness though. No one is stopping you. :)

My Best Buddies

I have 2 best buddies.

My best buddy #1 is my GPS machine. It directs me to any place I wanna go to. I must admit that I'm a directional idiot on the road, which is why I need my best buddy (the GPS) to bring me around.

Most importantly, it takes me to the places where I get Rossi gal's meat supplies regularly. These are the places of priority that I make sure I mark down & favorited in my buddy.

Even when I take a wrong turn, I need not freak out, for my buddy will direct me back to the right route, leading me to my destination. It is a value-for-money investment, one that I'm so glad I have made.

Now I can go to anywhere on the Singapore map with my buddy in the lead. :)

My best buddy #2 is Google. It has provided me with a wealth of information that has helped me alot in taking care of Rossi gal's health & diet and also, in knowing where to get her necessities like her meats, supplements & stuff she uses.

There is a lot of stuff that can be easily found with a few keywords & a click of the mouse. It's just this simple. Virtually anything can be found on Google.

It's a wonder why some people dun make use of what Google has to offer. Too lazy to type or click the mouse? Or perhaps they just prefer to have the answers served to them on a platter? *Shrug*

I dun have the luxury of being served with answers. Neither do I like to be served nor to serve.

I prefer to 'be-friend' Google. ;)

While I'm happy to share & discuss things, I do not like the idea of being made use of, especially by those who can't be bothered to do their own research.

New Fish Oil

I purchased this salmon oil for Rossi gal on the recommendation of a fellow raw feeder. Previously, I was using Nordics Naturals Fish Oil (for Pets). Not implying that Nordics is not good, but I just want a change.  

We are sharing the big bottle between us. It would take her a long time to finish up all by herself. Besides, this is human grade, fine for me to take it.

As per the label, this salmon oil contains No sugar, No starch, No artificial colours, No artificial flavors, No preservatives, No wheat, No gluten, No corn, No soy, No dairy & yeast free. 

I like that it is free of the common allergens that might cause allergic reaction/s in some dogs, especially those sensitive ones (like my Rossi gal).

I also like that it contains no soy/vit E. In the raw discussion board I frequent, they give the advice to choose a fish oil without soy/vit E.

For Rossi's case, I think a fish oil without soy/vit E would be better for her. She may be fine with soy/vit E, but I would still choose to cut it out completely from her diet if possible. I feel it is best for her to avoid soy/vit E totally, especially when she is so sensitive.     

On a side note, a change of brand is good for me psychologically too, in a way. Nordics reminds me of some unwanted & unpleasant personal memories of previous relationships.

Friends come, Friends go. I have learnt that it is hard or perhaps, impossible for me to have any true friends. I never have the fortune of having friends who are willing to stick long enuff with me or accept me for who I am.

Some friends I have had the misfortune of knowing, only want to manipulate me into doing wat they want or following their ways without any regard for my feelings. I'm glad to be rid of such friends. Good riddance.

I dun believe in friends anymore. Not ever.

Her Personalized ID Tag

Call me a kiasu mummy.

With the recent unfortunate case of mis-read microchip, I decided to get an ID tag for Rossi gal with the necessary details (her name, microchip & my contact).

Not that daddy & I are not cautious with her, but this is just an added safety measure.

After browsing through some webbys & various tag designs, I came across a webby that does personalized tags, whereby the furkid's photo of the pawrent's choice is imprinted on the tag itself. Daddy & I thought this was interesting & decided to get a persoalized tag for her.

Darling's ID tag. :>

It comes with a rubber rim & a metal ring. The rubber rim is for framing the outer rim of the tag, so that it does not produce the "clink clink" sound when it hits against the collar/harness. The metal ring is for attaching the tag onto the collar/harness.

I like how the tag looks on her harness. Nice. :)

There is an option for a smaller tag, but daddy thought it would look kinda small. I'm glad I chose the bigger tag. The tag's size looks just right with her harness. ^^

A Morning at Mummy's Office

I suggested to daddy that Rossi gal, him & me spend our holiday morning today at my office. 

Her first time here

I have been working here for about 10 years & daddy haven't visited my office once, much less Rossi gal. He does take darling over to fetch me after work & have breakfast with me near my workplace at times, but never have the chance to come up for a visit.


My work station

 

My desk
 

'Mummy, can I work here too?'

It is a rare opportunity that they could visit my office now. There is no one around. All have gone on a company trip, except me. I have chosen to stay behind. During usual times, our guys do work on weekends & even public holidays, so it is not convenient for daddy & darling to visit.

'So many drawers. Blur.'

 

 

Dozzing off

It was quite an experience for darling. Soon, it was time to go. Daddy bagged her up, while I proceeded to close the office for the day...re-arranging the chairs, switching off the aircon & thermal water pot, etc.

'Mummy, when are you bringing me to work again?'

I'm happy that I can bring my family (darling & daddy) to my workplace and show them where I work. We spent a delightful morning here.

Nothing beats being with the ones you love & care for. Regardless of where we are & what we do there, even if it is just sitting quietly & spending every moment together, it is a heartwarming and beautiful time.

Another Bumper Bed

Darling likes her bumper bed . She plays, rests and sleeps on the bed.

Her mummy rests herself on it at times too. ;p It's comfy.

As she has only one bed, so when its covers are being washed, she would have to wait till they are dry before she can enjoy her bed again.

With this in mind, daddy wanted me to get an additional set of bed covers for her, initially. But after further consideration, he decided to get an extra bed for her instead, which I thought was a good idea. :)

Therefore, after going through the available colour schemes for the covers and choosing our desired colours, I placed the order for her second bed.

The package arrived yesterday. :P

Darling's new bumper bed.

Darling in her new bed. See her happy little face. ^_^

With two bumper beds, they can be used interchangeably as the other one is being washed. So, Darling gets to enjoy her bed all the time! :D

Rossi gal & Her New Bag

During a recent meetup, I saw my fren carrying her furkid around in a nice looking bag. If I didn't know her, I wouldn't have known her furkid was inside there at all. ;p

I like what I saw & thought a bag would be useful for Rossi gal. Daddy agreed with me, so we decided to get a bag for her.  

*It is also a good way to 'hide' her away from the eyes of her surroundings, especially kids, Yes.  -__-

We measured our darling, took note of her measurements and began our search for her bag. As our darling is a tall & strapping gal, many bags we saw didn't fit her. They are all smaller than she is. Therefore, we were left with quite limited choices.

After some discussion and a final confirmation on darling's size, we settled for this bag. It arrived at our doorstep just a day after our order. Thumbs-up for the prompt service.

We chose this bag for it's size rather than it's design, though it looks fine. There were other designs that me and daddy liked. We both have our personal favorites, but as mentioned, they were not big enuff for our darling.

Darling was very curious about the bag when we placed it before her. She kept walking around it, sniffing at it and checking it out.

Daddy managed to 'lure' her into the bag quite successfully with wat she loves best...TREATS. As expected, many treats were utilised during the 'luring' process. But the results were good. :)

She stays quite nicely in the bag as daddy carries it, but she just likes to poke her inquisitive little nose out of the opening. ^_^

We have lined the interior of the bag with her towel and a pair of daddy's shorts to make it a cozy & familiar place for her to be in. She loves all of daddy's shorts.

After her long walk this morning, as we were in our car, going home, she climbed into the bag, nestled herself in there and dozed off.

Looks like our darling is quite comfy in her new bag. She has gotten used to it faster than we expected. Glad she likes her bag. :)

Rossi ~ Growing Up

This is a montage of Rossi gal's growing up process, from an adorable baby gal blooming into a pretty young lady now. Just like a butterfly.

She will always be my little darling & always, Daddy's little gal.

♥Credits to Daddy, for specially creating this lovely video.♥

Lamb Shoulder Rack

Recently, I got the lamb shoulder rack for Rossi gal.

I have seen other butcheries selling it at their counters, but I prefer to get it from my regular butcher.

As they did not display this cut at their counter, I had to ask the butcher if they have it. He said yes, then went into his meat processing area and took out a huge chunk of shoulder bone-in meat. I told him I wanna get it and he proceeded back to the area to cut up the huge chunk for me.

After processing, it looks as above. There are a total of 5 pieces.

Some pictures of her enjoying the rack. I took them when she was finishing up the remainder of the rack. Didnt expect her to finish it up, but she did. :)

P.S. I'm so looking forward to feed her beef! So excited! ;p

Just God, Darling & Me

My darling,

What more can mummy do for you?
What have I not done?
Where have I not done enough?
You are perfect in every sense, except...if only...
How I wish you get the best in every aspect.

Why do others put in minimum effort & gain more than what they deserve?
Whereas, I have put in so much effort, but my gain does not match my effort,
Life is never fair, this I know & it really sucks big time!  

Dear God,

Please look favorably upon my darling.
Please grant her what I have asked of you.
Please give her what she needs.
And...Please keep her safe, happy and healthy, always.
God, Please.

Silver Sol for Her Ear

On Saturday morning, I noticed Rossi gal's left inner ear red and swollen. I think it could be her scratching her ear that caused this.

Immediately, I soaked a cotton wool with Silver Sol and gently pressed it against the affected area. I also cleaned the area with the Sol.

I repeated this soaking, pressing & cleaning several times for the rest of the Saturday, as well as on Sunday. And this morning, I saw improvements to her ear. :)

As shown in the After pic, the red and swollen area has subsided.

I will continue her on the Sol for another few days, just to ensure the area heals properly. Not as frequent as I did over the weekend, probably just 2-3 times a day.

I'm glad I kept a bottle of Silver Sol readily available. Never know when I would need it for my darling. :)

An Unexpected Visitor

On Friday night, we had an unexpected visitor at our place. Daddy was the one who first discovered the presence of this unusual 'guest'. He fixed his stare on our bedroom window, pointed at it and asked, "What is that up there?"

I looked towards the window and saw a silhouette against the pane. We continued watching it with curiosity and wonder. Then all of a sudden, the silhouette moved and slowly spread out a set of wings.

Upon seeing the wings, Daddy's immediate reaction was, "It's a Bat!!"

It's weird, but the first thing that came to my mind was, "Batman". Then images of my favorite Batman movie, 'Batman Forever' began unfolding in my mind. Following the remincense of the movie, I was reminded of dracula movies and bats' documentaries. It's so weird. @@

All this while, Rossi gal was blissfully unperturbed. She was lying comfortably on the bed by our side, relaxing. It was only when Daddy walked over to the window to take a closer look & a quick snap shot of the bat that Rossi gal's atttention was drawn to the presence of Mr Bat.

Well, I dunno for sure if the bat is a male or female, but the influence of the batman movie automatically led me to think of it as a male.

On a sidenote, Daddy thought Mr Bat looked quite well-fed. On a closer look, I do agree with him. Mr Bat appeared to have a bulging tummy, like he just had a feast. 

It had rained earlier. The weather was cool & wet, so I gathered Mr Bat was looking for a shelter to take a break and decided to do so at our place.

It was our first time having Mr Bat visit at our place after 5 years of living here. Interesting experience, but still, I'm not looking forward to Mr Bat's future vists. 

Batman aside, I couldn't help associating bats with draculas. I also think they look scary and unfriendly.

So Mr Bat, please find elsewhere to nest yourself next time. Give our place a miss. Thank you.

Brushing my Darling

Brushing my darling's furs is a daily routine. To me, it is akin to brushing my teeth everyday. It is an essential activity in her time-table.

I believe that other than diet, supplements and grooming products, the regular brushing of furs also helps to contribute to a nice & healthy coat.

The act of brushing might seem like a simple process, but it does brings about a number of benefits, which include; prevents entangles & matts, removes dead skin cells, loose furs & dirt, stimulates & distributes the skin's natural oils, controls shedding, enables the pawrent to discover skin conditions like hot spots & lumps and also, promotes bonding between the pawrent & furkid.

Brush for brushing her furs & Comb for combing her ear fringe

I enjoy brushing my darling and she enjoys being brushed too. She would lie her body relaxingly on my lap as I brush her. I like the feeling of having her warm little body spread across my lap. It warms my heart. This is our exclusive time together, where we quietly enjoy each other's company. It is a mutually satisfying experience for us both.

I do encourage pawrents, who have not been brushing their furkids, to pick up that brush and start brushing.  

Shopping Time & A New Item

Ok, time to add some bright & cheer to my blogging space. :)

Yesterday, I had a great time shopping with my frens. We went to a few places & shopped for the neccessary meat supplies & stuff for our darlings.

After the shopping, we had a nice lunch together & did wat gals love to do most...chatting...chatting...& more chatting. ^^ It was fun.

Our shopping for the day, bagged & boxed up, fitting snugly into the boot. :p

This natural laundry liquid was one of the items on my shopping list. It is a new item, my first time getting it.  

I got it specially to wash both Rossi gal's & our things like clothing, bedsheets & such. As she shares our bed and sticks to us everyday, it's only right that we use the same wash for our stuff as well. 

I do not know how good this product is, but based on the label, I like that it is "natural", "safe" and most importantly, "hypoallergenic".

The word, "hypoallergenic" especially captures my attention, as I'm looking for something that can eliminate or at least, minimise any possiblities of skin reactions. (For my darling's well-being)

There are some more items on my wish list for darling. Eventually, one by one, I will get them all for her.

Be Myself

I just want to be myself and not what anyone else wants me to be.

I used to be very bothered about how my frens and other people think of me. Eventually, I realise that I should not be. I should be myself.

Like  what a fren recently said to me recently, if you need to Not be yourself in order for your frens to like you, these frens are not needed. This is so true. What she said, really speaks to me.

I used to have frens, who always think they are right about everything. They expected me to agree with them and do things their way for Rossi gal & some other stuff. However, they are not always right, though they like to think they are. Well, I dun need such frens too.

I have been feeling down and thinking alot lately. And as I think, I get angry at myself and those so-called frens I used to have.

I get angry with myself for trying to mould myself to their standards.
I get angry at them for trying to manipulate me.

My recent blog posts have been outbursts of anger and frustration. Hopefully, my next post will be a positive one.

Till then.

Get out of my Sight

Get out of my sight! I dun wanna be frens with selfish people.

Get out of my sight! I dun wanna be frens with self-obsessed people.

Get out of my sight! I dun wanna be frens with irritating people.

Get out of my sight! I hate people that only care about themselves.

Get out of my sight! I hate people that don't know when to stop.

Get out of my sight! I hate people that treat Rossi gal as a guinea pig.

I dun want to have anything to do with you!

Get out of my sight! Just, Get out of my sight!

Enough is Enough

I'm gonna be blunt in this post & I'm not gonna mince my words.
Enough is Enough. 

I'm pissed & I wanna vent it all out. Whether anyone likes it or not, I'm venting it straight out right here in my space.

You can close off the window now, if you dun feel comfortable reading my rants. To anyone who is on this page now, you have been fore-warned.

Rant #1

From now on, I will think twice & even thrice before I post my comments or respond to questions online. I will also be very careful when I make frens online especially on social networking sites. People I am not familiar with, I will not reveal my personal number.

I have experienced enuff to come to this. This is especially so for the personal number part, cos if one is unable to contact the source online, one can just start dialling the number. Some won't be so extreme as to contact the source via the number, but there are always exceptions, who would use the number to the best of their advantage.

Therefore, I have learnt, never ever reveal my number to individuals I'm unfamiliar with. It's dangerous.

All along, I have always been keen to post comments and respond to questions that come my way. However, I come to realise there are those who would start to take it for granted and not feel inclined to do their own research or reading up. There are also those who simply choose not to read up and expect others to spoonfeed them with information, whereby they just follow as it is.

Then in both cases, as and when they have any questions, they just bombard the source and expect answers.

I find this so irritating, so inconsiderate and so damn irresponsible. Your dog belongs to you. You should be doing the reading up, but you expect people to spend time and effort to feed u with answers. This is so damn selfish too!

It is okay to ask questions, but people should do their own reading up too. From the type of questions one ask, it would be quite evident if one has done any form of research or reading up.

Then when one asks question, one dun keep revolving around the same question by continuing to ask a series of unnecessary sub-questions, when the original question has been already been answered. This is very exasperating to the source answering the questions. It makes one wonder if a thing called 'common sense' even exists.  

Why can't these people just use google to the best of their advantage like some of us do? Why become a leech onto others?

Rant #2

My Rossi gal is not a benchmark or guideline you can use as a reference for your purposes.

Not only is it inaccurate to use her as a guide (cos every furkid is different), it is also insensitive and rude to do so. By doing so, you are being insensitive and rude to Rossi gal, her daddy and me. Me and daddy do not like our darling being used as a guide by anyone.

I'm more than happy to share about my experience with Rossi gal, but dun abuse it and use her as a guide for your own selfish purposes.

She is not your Guinea Pig. Get this into your thick skull.

Rant #3

I hate being presented with "what-if questions". What-if I never do this for Rossi gal & she gets infected? Will I blame myself for this?

I hate to answer such questions. If I answered, I'm just answering either out of goodwill or cos I see that this person won't let it go if I dun answer. If you had bothered to exercise a little sensitivity, you would have detected my unhappiness in being presented with questions as such.

When I choose not to do certain things (for eg. not giving heartworm meds), I have already equipped myself with the knowledge of the pros & cons and what's involved. I know what I'm in for. I know what I'm doing and why I'm doing what I'm doing.

Why do you need to ask such questions? Asking these questions to satisfy your curiosity or again, for your own reference or for whatever reason, is damn insensitive! Dun try to make excuses for yourself! Such insensitivity is intolerable.

There are some questions that just shouldn't be asked, especially questions like the abovementioned. Logically, No one likes to hear about what-if you dun do this and your dog gets sick? Will you blame yourself? Blah Blah. FYI, I hate such questions!  

Well, you may be the exceptional one, who is ok with such questions, but do be sensitive to others. Others may not be ok with what you are ok with. Think for others. It's not always just about you. Dun be so selfish.

Do be more sensitive and process the questions in your CPU before running them on the screen.

Rant #4

I hate the feeling of having to answer questions like I'm doing some report on problem solving, whereby I'm expected to present the causes, effects, solutions and eventually, even the recommendation (of the best solution).

It shouldn't be this way. Hate it. I'm already out of school. I'm past report-writing.

And I hate that my answers are being placed against another set of answers. It's like comparing to see who has the better answers. For goodness' sake, this is not an exam!

You may say you are not making use of me for answers Or you may say you are just asking for opinions. But whatever it is, I feel I'm being made used of. You made me feel this way.

Rant #5

In attempting to allay your own worries or anxieties, you are causing distress to me with your overflow of questions. How inconsiderate. You may not feel it, but I do.

And I find that a number of questions are really unneccessary & I dun even see the need to answer them. 

Also, questions like, when is the time to visit the vet? Or if you dun go vet, can this heal? Or what should you use for a certain condition or issue? Blah Blah.

These are not for me to answer. It is for the individual owner to determine based on their understanding of their furkid. You know your furkid best. Please assess on your own. I'm not in the position to answer you. 

And take note, you are asking someone (me), who does my best to stay far far away from the vet & who finds it a drag whenever the vet topic is being brought up. Vet questions are just not for me. You have asked the Wrong person. Find someone who is pro-vet to answer you.

And if you are so damn worried & your thoughts are treading towards the big "V", fine, just run there. Period. Dun keep asking questions circling the sickening "V". It's damn irritating, like a hovering fly that refuses to go away no matter how hard I try to swat it off.

In conclusion, 

I believe I have been more than patient with insensitive & self-centered people. Now I have been pushed to & over the limit of my patience.

My patience has been wearing thinner & thinner by the day. But because you have been so self-centered, so insensitive & so caught up with the bombardment of your questions, you fail to notice it.

Others may be fine with your style of questioning etc, but I'm Not. There are times, whereby I feel that you are not even listening to what I'm saying. You are just so intent with ur questioning, till you couldn't quite register what I'm trying to tell you.

Dun try to make excuses for your actions. I hate excuses.

Finally, I snapped. I simply snapped. Totally SNAPPED!

Are you satisfied now?

A Little Sensitivity

All I need, is a little sensitivity. 

I wish I have answers too. I wish there are people I can consult too. However, there is none.

*Unfortunately, from experience, the vet is not someone I can consult or rely on.

I do not wish to come across as being selfish, but Rossi has her own issues and I havent been able to figure out, much less, resolve. Her skin is my top most concern. Since day 1, she has skin issues & I have been managing her skin since then.

It is quite apparent to me that her skin is something I have to manage for long-term and I'm prepared for that. I have her to worry about and care for. I really can't afford to divert too much of my attention to others. I dun have the time and energy.

I must say thanks to Daddy. He has been wonderful. He has been by my side all this time, working hand in hand with me, for our darling. Without his support, I would not have been able to persevere on.

Like I have always said, Raw has helped her skin, but it is not a miracle cure as some might like to think.

It seems her skin is just this sensitive & it is just in her. Just like us humans, by default, some have oily skin and are prone to acne, while some have normal skin with few/minimal outbreaks and there are also the lucky ones with flawless skin.

As much as I wish she falls under the category of lucky ones or at least, the normal skin category, she's neither of them.

I need a little sensitivity. Spare a little thought for my feelings. If I dun even have an answer for my darling, how do I have answers for others? If I can't even resolve my darling's issues, how can I help resolve others' issues?

Whatever I do for Rossi is what I feel is best for her. When something doesnt seem to work, I will stop and move on to another way. I also do trial and error to see which ways or methods work for her. I can't say for sure what I do is definitely right too.

At times, I really dun wan & dun like to talk about or be asked about what I do and dun do for her.

Please spare me a little sensitivity. I would really appreciate it.